Monday, August 19, 2013

UNDER HOUSE ARREST....dun dun dun...

Oh man...where to start. How to even answer these emails! AHH! Y'all are stressing me out! Ha. Joke. First of all...HEATHECLIFF (Autumn) IS ENGAGED!!! AGHHH! I was dying laughing here in the library when I read all about it. I can not even wait for them. I am freakin' out! This is the second ring that she has stolen...just sayin...How is my CTR ring treatin' ya Aut? ;) HA HA HA but seriously..I want my ring back. Okay...kidding. Love ya.
I actually didn't realize that Chatty Cathy was a doll. I just hear that term all the time. Ha! But yeah...that's one thing that I've learned out here...how to talk to people. I loooooove people. Every person has their own uniqueness, their own story, their own history, their own way of thinking. I love getting to know them and just chattin' with them. So sorry if I talk y'alls ears off when I get home. It's a Texas thing.
Okay...I've been trying to avoid this subject...and I thank you for your lengthy letters and emails trying to convince me that I'm being dumb. Ha ha I know y'all are just watching out for me. I AM scared to tell you because I DO think y'all will freak out. But just know that I'm feeling a lot better.
Mom, I will TRY to be honest. :) I'll start with zone conference...No I did not give my training. President Ames called me the night before and gave my training to someone else ( :( mine was good too!)..he also wouldn't let me drive...and then I had to leave early to get an MRI. Sigh. I was in pretty bad shape that day. I was really sick for awhile there but since the whole "house arrest" thing, I feel sooo much better. It makes me want to just get back out there because I feel fine!!! But then I just fall apart all over again when I try. But yes, Sister Ames told me that I need rest and even told me that they would take me to the mission home. Nah...It's bad enough being in the apartment all day! This is by far been the hardest week of the mish. :) Not just the physical pain...I can handle that...but just because I'm so miserable staying in the apartment. I just feel bad because I have so many duties and responsibilities that aren't being met. I feel bad for putting people out of their way because of my weakness...and my poor companion!!! Oh I just feel so bad for her. I just feel bad. :( I want to be out and about! :)
I truly am grateful for trials in our lives though. I know I talk about this all the time, but it's because it is oober important to me...and should be for everyone. I am so grateful for my Savior and His atonement. I have come to such a better understanding and a knowledge of the atonement. And it's times like these when I understand more fully the enabling power of the atonement. If life was all breezy good all the time, we would never understand! So I truly am grateful for them... :) And what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger! Ha ha! :) Love. This. Gospel. Love my Redeemer.
To comfort my dear sweet mother. I am letting people help. I don't think this is appendicitis and I'm hours away from dying! Ha ha :) But I've been trying to take prescriptions and listen to Sister Ames and the doctors, etc. Man, I must be stubbornly prideful because it is HARD. I hate letting people help! My ward mission leader scolds me everyday because of my pride...no worries. He's just as stubborn as I am and won't let me leave his house until I'm honest! Ha ha also, his son is a doctor and is constantly checking up on me. So no I'm not dying. Yes I am getting help. And I feel sooo much better! I go to the neurologist on Wednesday so we'll see if we can figure anything out. But I think I know what it is...my gut feeling...Hey, my gut has been right before! :) I'm gonna leave ya hanging...I'll let you know if I'm right next week. ;) Dun dun dun.
I'm doing well! :) I love the gospel. And I am truly happy. :) LOVE y'all! Keep the faith!!!! :)
Sister Barnes
P.S. Sorry...I know I still didn't give you anything too concrete, but I DID tell you more so no whinin'!!! ;)

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